The bad news of the morning was his preliminary results of the fluid around his infected pacemaker site showed MRSA. It was caught quickly and is being treated aggressively so we are hopeful this won't turn into a big complication. We appreciate prayer this would be the case. We are thankful for ten weeks of Jackson's life and God's care. Last night I felt I couldn't go on another day. The motel walls seemed to be closing in. I sobbed to Mason that I wanted a home, wanted to make dinner, wanted to care for my children, wanted to go to church, wanted to have a purpose in life, wanted this whole huge nightmare to end. I felt like we, as a family, would surely be ruined if this lasted one more day. I went to bed with a heavy heart. I was thankful to be able to cry, but still dreading absolute ruin. I got up in the early morning and read this verse in my devotional, "He led them on safely." Psalm 78:53 So simple, yet so perfect. We are going to be okay.
The eternal God is a dwelling place, and underneath are the everlasting arms... Deuteronomy 33:27
ReplyDelete"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
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When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched,
Nor will the flame burn you.
For I am the Lord your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior..."
~Isaiah 43:2-3
I will take my stand at my watchpost and station myself on the tower, and look out to see what he will say to me, and what I will answer concerning my complaint. And the Lord answered me: “Write the vision; make it plain on tablets, so he may run who reads it. For still the vision awaits its appointed time; it hastens to the end—it will not lie. If it seems slow, wait for it; it will surely come; it will not delay. (Habakkuk 2:1-3 ESV)
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Rachel, right now THIS MOMENT is your purpose in life. Your purpose is to take the best care of your family that you can in this circumstance. This circumstance is not a pleasant one, but your job is to push through and take care of your children and husband just as you are! And the fact that you're keeping such a strong faith while doing so is just icing on the cake!
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Amanda Clark
Hi Rachel, you don't know me but my husband and I go to church at GCC in San Antonio and we have been praying for your family. One verse that has encouraged me through various trials this past year is Isaiah 41:10 - "Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will hold you with My righteous right hand." I am so sorry for this trial you are in, but what a comfort to know that our God has promised to be with us and help us through. Much love to your family! ~ Jordan Lohrmann
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